I feel that the last few months have been lived in a sort of alternate reality. It is as though I have stepped into the life of someone else, and am more of an observer, than actual participant. Yesterday it struck me, I need to stop doing this. While it may protect me from some unpleasant emotions, it deprives me of actually living my life. One of my yoga instructors called this "facing the truth". We may not like where we are in life, or our bodies, but that is no reason to ignore the facts. If I view the next 3-5 months as a life hiatus, I will float through this time like a pile of poop, wasting time that I could spend being alive right now. This post is taking a more new age-y route than I had originally intended, but the message is clear none the less, I will stop wasting precious time wishing for the life that I should have, and start involving myself in the life that I have right now.
Still no word from the remaining six schools to which Seth has applied, and I am trying this new method of communication called, "being supportive without whining about your own petty problems". I feel better already.
And now just because I haven't posted any pictures in a while, Maybe's most charming feature...
